我知道

从来没想过
(cóngláiméixiǎngguò)
不能再和你牵手
(bùnéngzàihénǐqiānshǒu)
委屈时候
(wěiqushíhòu)
没有你
(méiyǒunǐ)
陪着我心痛
(péizhewǒxīntòng)

一切都是我
(yíqièdōushìwǒ)
太过骄纵
(tàiguòjiāozòng)
以为你会懂
(yǐwéinǐhuìdǒng)
一直忘了说
(yìzhíwàngleshuō)
我有多感动
(wǒyǒuduōgǎndòng)

我知道你还是爱着我
(wǒzhīdàonǐháishìàizhewǒ)
虽然
(suīrán)
分开的理由
(fēnkāidelǐyóu)
我们都已接受
(wǒmendōuyǐjiēshòu)

你知道我会有多难过
(nǐzhīdàowǒhuìyǒuduōnánguò)
所以
(suǒyǐ)
即使到最后
(jíshǐdàozuìhòu)
还微笑着
(háiwēixiàozhe)
要我加油
(yàowǒjiāyóu)

我知道你还放不下我
(wǒzhīdàonǐháifàngbùxiàwǒ)
才会
(cáihuì)
在离开时
(zàilíkāishí)
闭着眼没有回头
(bìzhuóyǎnméiyǒuhuítóu)

我们都知道彼此心中
(wǒmendōuzhīdàobǐcǐxīnzhōng)
其实
(qíshí)
这份爱没停过
(zhèfènàiméitíngguò)

曾经完整幸福的梦
(céngjīngwánzhěngxìngfúdemèng)
在脑海里头
(zàinǎohǎilǐtóu)
我多希望你
(wǒduōxīwàngnǐ)
还在我左右
(háizàiwǒzuǒyòu)

答应你
(dāyingnǐ)
我会好好过
(wǒhuìhǎohǎoguò)
不让
(búràng)
这些眼泪白流
(zhèxiēyǎnlèibáiliú)

CONG LAI MEI XIANG GUO, BU NENG ZAI HE NI QIAN SHOU
WEI QU SHI HOU MEI YOU NI, PEI ZHE WO XIN TONG
YI QIE DOU SHI WO, TAI GUO JIAO ZONG, YI WEI NI HUI DONG
YI ZHI WANG LE SHUO, WO YOU DUO GAN DONG

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI SHI AI ZHE WO
SUI RAN, FEN KAI DE LI YOU, WO MEN DOU YI JIE SHOU
NI ZHI DAO WO HUI YOU DUO NAN GUO
SUO YI, JI SHI DAO ZUI HOU, HAI WEI XIAO ZHE YAO WO JIA YOU

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI FANG BU XIA WO
CAI HUI, ZAI LI KAI SHI, BI ZHE YAN MEI YOU HUI TOU
WO MEN DOU ZHI DAO BI CI XIN ZHONG
QI SHI, ZHE FEN AI MEI TING GUO

CONG LAI MEI XIANG GUO, BU NENG ZAI HE NI QIAN SHOU
WEI QU SHI HOU MEI YOU NI, PEI ZHE WO XIN TONG
YI QIE DOU SHI WO, TAI GUO JIAO ZONG, YI WEI NI HUI DONG
YI ZHI WANG LE SHUO, WO YOU DUO GAN DONG

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI SHI AI ZHE WO
SUI RAN, FEN KAI DE LI YOU, WO MEN DOU YI JIE SHOU
NI ZHI DAO WO HUI YOU DUO NAN GUO
SUO YI, JI SHI DAO ZUI HOU, HAI WEI XIAO ZHE YAO WO JIA YOU

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI FANG BU XIA WO
CAI HUI, ZAI LI KAI SHI, BI ZHE YAN MEI YOU HUI TOU
WO MEN DOU ZHI DAO BI CI XIN ZHONG
QI SHI, ZHE FEN AI MEI TING GUO

CENG JING WAN ZHENG XING FU DE MENG, ZAI NAO HAI LI TOU
WO DUO XI WANG NI, HAI ZAI WO ZUO YOU

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI SHI AI ZHE WO
SUI RAN, FEN KAI DE LI YOU, WO MEN DOU YI JIE SHOU
NI ZHI DAO WO HUI YOU DUO NAN GUO
SUO YI, JI SHI DAO ZUI HOU, HAI WEI XIAO ZHE YAO WO JIA YOU

WO ZHI DAO NI HAI FANG BU XIA WO
CAI HUI, ZAI LI KAI SHI, BI ZHE YAN MEI YOU HUI TOU
DA YING NI, WO HUI HAO HAO GUO
BU RANG, ZHE XIE YAN LEI BAI LIU

Sunday

Wasn't in a good mood whole day today,been thinking alot today @@ Sigh,the usual me.. Anyway, today went to church like usual, sitting there listening to the choir and bible study lo nothing much.. then went to pet store and bought a bowl for my little rabbit cuz the 1 I bought earlier is too big and too high for the little 1 to actually reach his head into the food and eat, so today go and buy another 1 suitable for her.. and worse thing is, my mom ACTUALLY go and bath the male rabbit ( yeah i got 2, male and female ) OMGOSH !! At first she wipe the rabbit still okay la, at least hygienic abit but after that she go and take the rabbit shampoo and pour some on her palm and then scratch the rabbit body + use shower to bath him!! OMGoodness! The rabbit was so scare, he jump here and there and try to escape and my mom go and pull him backz from his back leg swtz and then keep on bathing him! The rabbit really...... I saw her doing that I adi speechless yet can't do anything cuz if I "fang kong", my mom will scold me swtz.. then the rabbit was like shaking the whole time right after he took a bath and then my mom go and use the " foong toong" and make him dry swtz... Pity my rabbit!! WTF!

Oh,my mom gonna get another rabbit from pasar malam and is a baby but duno which sex she gonna get.. probably another male @@ now got 1 male and female adi, waiting for her to beranak and then give them away to those who want it haha.. But after all the ruckus, I still bad mood though.. Sigh..

In Remembrance of Michael Jackson

Heal The World

There's A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We'll Cry
Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me
You And For Me

One of the song I love the most.. Rest In Peace MJ!

Living..

Haha, I always have this weird thoughts come out whenever I try to go and sleep but cannot sleep at all. Let me just share what I have in mind yesterday when I was lying on the bed can't sleep. Okay,let's get started.

I'm sure everyone know baby pretty well isn't it? Well,I have this thought about baby. Living as a baby is sure fun,is just eat, sleep, play and cry that's all. They don't have this thing called " stress and depression " They won't know how to deal with this stuff cause they don't even have 1. Often we fall down because of stress and then we start to get depressed. Often we ask ourself why such thing happens to us and why not others? Often we ask ourself why am I the unlucky one? and often we ask, Isn't it good to be that way instead of being this way? That's why we often give up and surrendered. The world is unfair,and is never fair. We have to deal with lots of problems and it will be getting more and more when we grow up but baby have none to worry about but they teach us something valuable in life.

Have you ever see baby crawl? Have you ever see baby starts to walk? Have you ever see a baby start to talk?So what you have in mind the first thing you see them doing this? Crawling and walking and learning to talk is just part of their life to grow up,to be a kid,a teenager, young adults,adults and then finally, being an elderly person. I tell you this,baby has a very strong will in them that we can't see or we don't even realize they have 1. True enough,they sometimes annoyed us when they cry, but when they start to crawl,is like another part they have overcome. Crawling to them is difficult,and they have to get through that stage of growing. In my opinion,is like they have this will to try to crawl. They have this will that they want to achieve,like getting something they want. A toy? food? I don't know but things that catch their attention and they are interested,they will try their best to get it.

Sometimes they fail to crawl but no matter how many times they fail,one day they will succeed same goes to walking. Ever see a baby try to stand up and try to walk but often they fell down and then cry? Same goes to us,the grown up. We often fall down,wondering what is happening to this so called "world" that we live in. Why everything seems to mess up? And then,it leads us to fail ourself but to baby, their not.Baby will fall down when they take their first step to start to walk and often they cry but no matter what,they never give up and try again and again till they know how to walk. What about us? Didn't some of them usually say " I give up " or " I don't want to do anymore,is so difficult,so stressful. I can't stand it anymore " Didn't we sometimes have this thought too?

Such a tiny human being teach us something valuable yet we often can't realize it ourself. Do we really need to give up everytime we fall? Do we really need to say " I don't want to do anymore " or do we say " Yes,I fall but I will never give up till I success in doing it ". I,myself don't have such courage to say I will never give up cause I know I'm those kind of people who usually give up pretty fast but I guess is time for me to change, to reflect what baby taught me about. I guess I have to quote this out from my brother. This quote is really meaningful and I hope it teach us something. He say " what doesn't kill us make us stronger " Is true ya know? Things that can't kill us,means a challenge in life that we have to overcome. To overcome it,we have to become stronger.Certain things in life we have to overcome such as your fear,your biggest fear in your life. Ya,we fail and we fall down often, but do get up and try again, just like those baby who never give up and try again.

P/S : paiseh,seems like I'm being a philosopher gum @@ Theory of Living ~

-Often we fail and fall,but learn to stand and never give up-

Life is like being in a circus

Assignments keep coming in 1 by 1 yet I still have no idea about designing a Kindergarten educational book for kids,any of you have any idea in mind that can share it with me? XD I really need some idea now.. And I need to design a candle holder or a wine glass with historical characters/myth creatures or a building and I guess If I'm talented enough,I'm doing gryphon if not maybe a human that's all haha.. Traditional Animation kinda fun to attend but busy with loads of exercise/drawing you need to do such as creating a character and have to draw 8 frames of that character to walk,is a walk cycle la basically and photography assignments seems fun also cuz you got the chance to experience how to take a proffesional pictures like you can see it in books.. Those nice scenery/archhitecture buildings picture..

You know,nowadays I kinda free since I've finished those previous assignments ( not including the new 1 ) I've been thinking bout alot of stuff. While hearing this song Circus - Britney Spears, I suddenly had a thought in my mind. Don't you think that,Life is like being in a circus? The world is like a circus while the humans are entertainer/audience. In a circus, you got fire breather,lion tamer,ballerina,clown,juggler,mr mime and etc. Well,humans too have many types in this world such as happy-go-lucky type, emo type,a mask wearer,and etc. Some likes to make up rumours,some like to spark up the fire, some like to spread,and some like to lead. Even in my gang too we have many types. For example :-

Yi - The Caring Type
Why? Cuz he really do care bout us like a Nanny

Ying - The Happy-go-Lucky Type
She always smile,always laugh like there's no problem out there she cannot handle. But actually, she got alot of problems to handle.

Shui - The Cool Type
He always go out with us with a "cool" look on his face lol

Lei - The Surprise Type
His reaction never fail to surprise me! LOL! Remember that time when Vivian went off to bed? And remember when he punch the soft toy eyes in Genting? That's surprising for him to act like that!

Kum - The Heck Care Type
Well, I don't know which category he fall in cause most of the time I hear from him is "dont know, dont care"

Bay - The Emo Type
Well, I no need to explain why.

Eddie - ????
Sorry bro,I don't know which type you fall into. A little bit of here and there xD

But actually,not good also to judge them by their attitudes.I just had it in my mind,thought of writing it out geh.. Sorry if I offense you with what i wrote here just I kinda find it interesting. Everyone has a role to play in this world,like being in a circus,what job you are doing in a circus, you have a role. Either you are the lion tamer, ballerina and etc. Being a human, being in a friendship, you too have a role whether a good friend? A leader? An organizer? etc is just that which 1 you prefer to be.

For my best friend..

What the world is going on now,I do not know and I do not notice the changes that is going on now.. There are plenty of weird looking,weird attitude and weird personality guy/girl out there, some may want to befriend with you,some may even try to hurt you,but you know your friends well as how you choose your friends too. Friendst cares you know you well but friends that try to harm you, do not bother what they try to do to you as you have plenty of friends to protect you,to keep you from harm. You may be strong in appearance but weak in the inner self of yours but do not be afraid as there will be someone who will protect you. Words hurt more than pictures can show. You might fall,might sad, and even try to give up everything that you work so hard on just because of a pile of bullshits they try to build up but do not let these stuff bother you,bother your intention as we know that you have a good intention,never really wanted to hurt and harm others. Be true to yourself and true to others,and they will be true to you too.

Friends can leave you anytime,anywhere. Best friends can backstab you from behind whenever you let your guard down but true friends will help you up everytime you fall. I may not know how to help you, I may be even useless to do anything compare to the others but I will be here to support you anytime anywhere. Sorry for doing nothing to help out,in fact,I'm not helping much either. I know that a packet of fah shang wu won't cheer you up but that's something that I can do right now. I do not know how to cheer you up, I do not know what to do to solve the problems, I do not know how to make you smile either,but promise is still a promise,I still care and I will always care as we are best friends from the past,the present and the future.

They hurt you,saying all kinds of bad words to you,from the good intention you are doing right till they twisted the facts and turning out the story to be real bad but have no fear,we all know the story real well. I may not know how you feel right now,probably sad? probably disappointed? probably felt that everything you do for the good sake of others has turn out to be in such ways,is kinda like mix feelings,but do cheer up k? I do not know whether you got read my post or not but here I wanna say something to you..

Is true that you are stubborn ( well, a little ) and sometimes princessly attitude,but hey,everyone has their own characters,has their own personality and to be a true friends of yours,I just only have this thought,never really mind whatever you do cause I know your intention is to make everyone happy,never have the intention to hurts someone feelings.. What so bad to have bad habits and bad personality sometimes? Everyone has that,and from that, we start to change,start to shape things out,start to learn to be a better person. I'm sorry to say this out,is just what I think,might be wrong,might be right I do not know but until today,I'm still here with you and forever will be there to support you,never have any intentions to betray you. Sorry if you might felt that I betrayed you in certain things cause sometimes I do something without thinking much. Anyway,I just wish you can get over it real quick. Man,is sad to see you being in a state like this,cheer up girls,we are here to support you! ( though I can't do much anyway,hope you don't mind haha )



- I may not know what I've said here is correct,but I just want you to smile again. Is sad to see you with an unhappy face now =( -

It seems..

Sigh.. Suddenly I feel like,I've lost my strength to continue this fight.. A fight to change myself.. Everything seems to get better a bit,well, at least my brother starts to find me for a little chat and Ying did find me for a song and chat a few words. Is better than nothing,at least a slight improvement here. I'm already happy to have such improvement,but still... I still wondering whether I can really change,whether I can really win this fight or not.. I just,seems to get tired today..

Ya know,I really scare.. I really scare to lose you all. Is part of my fear since young till now. This fear,I can't seems to conquer it. Everything seems to have changed,ever since my brother appear. I'm sorry to have such selfish thought in my mind sai lou.. Is just,I feel it so.. We seems,no longer that close anymore compare to backz then.. Back before my brother appear. Last time is still the best,having you two around with me,I really feel happy. I can't find any words to express how happy I am backz then,chatting together,laugh and joke around together.. I still remember the first time we started to know each other,we keep chatting from morning till night haha.. Still remember the day when I started to tell you I wanna go your house and play? Wanna go your house for a sleepover? How we both enjoyed each other's company.. But things start to change now and I wonder what happened to us.. We no longer look for each other to have a conver,we no longer starts to tell our problems,our secrets.. I guess is just because I emo too much.. Sigh,man.. really miss those days.. I can't seems to be close to you anymore am I? Haha.. I'm sorry to have cause so much trouble to you but I really hope,we can be as close as we are back then.. I'm not sure whether you did notice our gap or not.. I did took my first step to improve our friendship and yet,I wonder you notice it or not too. I hope you do.. I try to think less,try not to emo anymore,all because I wanted you guys backz.. but.... Sigh.. Tomorrow I'll be going to your house. To say the truth,I really did scare how am I suppose to handle my emoness.. Will I emo again? Will I jealous again? I seriously don't know the answer.. I'm weak, not strong but I do my best to help,to change myself,to be happy but it seems so difficult to do it.. I'm sorry..

I remember.. You was the encourager! Haha! I always fall down,always sad,always emo but you never give up on me,always with a cheerful face and teach me alot of stuff! We even keep finding each other for ideas where to hang out,where to eat and where to find entertainment. Even we have problems,you will find me and talk it out ( but that was you only ) I don't really dare to tell you every problems that I'm facing cause,it will just make you worried more.. I don't know why I'm keeping it from you,maybe don't want you to sad gua.. Sorry na,I also create some problem for you to handle.. Especially I trust so much on Jan them.. I didn't know they will backstab you yet I even try to bring them closer.. Sigh.. guess I'm useless to be a friend to you cause I hurt you so much.. I also know that you hate people to avoid you,yet I've been doing it to you everytime. I don't know,seriously don't know how to face you that time,knowing that I... erm,nevermind. Sigh.. That time,I will always remember it,and keeping it as a memory.. That time,you were studying late night for your final exams and I were doing some architecture modelling assignments.. You find me for a chat,from around 11 something till 5am only then you said you wanted to study cause can't concentrate much if we continue chat/you wanna sleep cause too tired,I don't know which 1 but all I remember is that,we did have a conversation till that late haha.. but.. it will always be a memory to me,it will never happen anymore I guess.. now.. we hardly find each other for a chat,nor we share any secrets or problems again.. I'm sorry to hurt you.. I'm sorry to have acted such way,saying wanna stay alone for a week.. In that week,I was thinking.. Do you guys care? That night you were in the conver yet you didnt talk much.. I was thinking,do you care for me? I don't know.. Sorry for being so weak,sorry for acting like this,sorry for everything.. Can we start all over again? I'll try to change,try to be happy,try not to emo cause you mean more than anything..

Haha.. We know each other for 3 years and we always quarrel non stop! Everyday,every minute,every second we also quarrel for same old things yet we still can be brother this long.. Is quite amazing,isn't it? For others,maybe 1 week already break relationship le but we still can survive up to this long haha.. I don't know le.. I always feel,always mix up everything.. Sometimes think that you don't care,you not a good brother to me yet sometimes I,myself feel that I didn't do what a brother should do,I'm not worthy to be your brother and wanted to break this relationship.. Numerous time we both suggested but in the end,we still end up become brother but this time.. is different le.. I always emo,always think negative,that's why you are avoiding me,not finding me and leaving me like this. I sometimes think that,you don't care anymore.. You don't seems to be serious in this brotherhood anymore.. To you,calling me gor is just a calling,nothing more than that.. But to me,it give me that feeling that we are really brother, not those made up brother.. For 3 years,I still doubting whether I mean something to you or not.. Like a gor to you? Sometimes you say I'm your gor,sometimes you say is just a calling.. I seriously don't know what am I to you.. is it because,whenever I emo,I'm not your gor? When I didn't emo,I'm your gor? I don't know.. Is it becoming your gor is a burden too heavy for you to handle? I don't know either.. I'm confused.. What exactly I am to you guys? A friend? A brother? or just someone you will find when you are having problems? You know.. from the start till now,I never consider you as a friend.. Always and forever you are my brother.. But.. who am I really to you? If calling me gor is just for the sake of calling but without a meaning,I hope you stop calling me gor when you don't mean it.. But to me,I will always call you sai lou,is because I seriously,sincerely treating you as 1.. Sorry bro,I cause you so much trouble..

Yi.. Sorry for making you worry me that day in shopping centre.. I didn't apologize to you for that and now,I sincerely saying sorry to you.. Sorry,I'm being so weak.. Sorry,I'm being so selfish.. Sorry for always causing trouble.. Sorry..





-Everyone has something they fear,and my fear is losing you-
-Sorry-

Evening Skies

Evening skies I snaped just now.. very beautiful isn't it? xD

Sigh

Man,changing is difficult..
I still can't stop myself from emo-ing,
how terrible I am,
haha...
Maybe you hated me for being like this,
Always think negative,
and acted like one,
that's why you try to avoid finding me,
haha,
who likes emo person anyway?
Yea,who likes it..
but we are humans,
we always have weakness,
some who are hot-tempered,
some who are stubborn,
some who are shy to express out feelings,
for me,
of course is emo-ing and jealousy!

haha i jealous alot,
emo alot,
if just because the way I am now,
you avoid me,
stay far from me,
then I guess,
there's no meaning to be friends anymore
cause,
there's someone told me that,
we have to accept each other's flaw,
through that,
we start to shape things out.

Man,I'm sure are terrible,
but still I did try,
and I will try,
If you just avoid me cause of this,
I really have nothing to say,
but I hope,
you will help me out,
as I do need care,
and support right now.

Sky

Shot some of the sky picture + crow along LOL kinda nice though..

1 week

1 week passed,
I wonder in this week,
I did changed or not,
even slightly changes also good,
but still....
haha, I wonder..?
Is not up to me to judge it,
whether or not,
I changed,
but oh well,
I hope I did changed.

This week,
I still doubting alot of stuff,
whether or not,
I'm absent in their presence,
Will they think of me?
Will they still care bout me?
Why isn't there any messages from them?
Are they really dislike me?
Dislike me to be with them?
But haha,
is just silly thought of mine,
Deep inside,
I remind myself,
Yes,they care,
and I know they care,
Unless they tell me face to face,
I DON'T CARE!,
Then I'm in deep shit!
wahahaha,
but I know it won't happen,
cause I believe them,
I trust them,
They care bout me,
as well as I care bout them.

This friendship,
will stay still,
will stay firm,
will stay strong,
cause,
We have been through thick and thin,
But i know,
this friendship,
Is true.

I'll be here,
whenever you need me,
is because,
you mean alot to me,
my brother,
my best friends,
I hope you know,
who I'm talking bout here,
without you,
I think I'm dead long ago,
hahahahaha!













-True friends are forever,till death bring us part-

For a better day

I know I can change,
just need to put in more effort,
and support from others,
and everything will turn out well.
I will change,
I know I will!

Boring

It seems I starts to get bored being alone,
I start to miss you guys,
guess being alone + changing at the same time,
is way difficult...

Cold huh? I lend you my hand,place it on your shoulder.You will feel warmer =)











-Miss you guys-

Change 2nd Part

Changing yourself is difficult,
As you do not know how to deal with your feelings,
Sometimes you may give in,
Sometimes you may not,
But everytime,
I know it was wrong doing that,
But feelings seem to overwhelm me.
I do not know how to start changing myself,
But I guess,
work it out is a new start ba..
Try once,
Fail once,
Try another time,
Fail another time,
But I don't believe everytime I try,
I will fail!
I guess,
If I don't try,
I will never know the result.
Even If I avoid you guys,
I hope we still stay as best friends,
no matter what,
we are still best friends
right?













-Help me when I fall-

I'll Be Backz

I'll be backz,
I know I will,
I know I can change!
After I've changed,
Let's have another sleepover okay?
After I've changed,
Let's be together again,
Let's be close again,
Okay?
^^













-Awaiting the day to arrive-

Change

Sorry,I guess this is the time where I really have to change ba..
Continue like this will only make us both suffer..
Sorry,I give you all troubles and I truly regret that I've treated you like this sai lou..
You scold dak really well,I guess I'm not qualified to be your brother,well at least not now..
The only way for me to change is to avoid everything,that's the only solution I can do right now..
Same like that time when you asked me to leave you alone for like a month,
that time I really feel the same as I am now..
But in between that month,I do change,
so I guess,
This is the only way I can change..

I hope you understand ba..
Sorry is all I can say right now..
You and I,
both have the same wish,
that is to have all 4 of us to enjoy together,
but I guess I can't make it come true..
At least,
not at this time..
Sorry all..
-Rainbow appear after a heavy rain,Happiness occur after sadness gone-













-Hope I can change -

Tired

I'm actually quite tired lately..
Tired of emo-ing which I'm not suppose to yet I can't help it. Is quite difficult to change..
Tired of forcing a smile so that others won't worry me yet I failed every time I try..
Tired of trying to change myself but every time I try,I fall again..
Tired of doing my assignments which I hardly know anything about software and technique to do..

Tired of everything,everything that seems to change rapidly..

I'm sorry is all I can say now..
I ever thought of leaving everything and then turn back and walk the other way but..
my brother hold me,and stop me from doing it..
I seriously wondering what can I do now?
Can I change?
Can I continue to walk this path,since I already walked for 1 year..

Can I smile again without any worries and sadness hidden in that smile?
Can I be happy again?
I'm not sure anymore haha..

Have you been this tired before? LOLz













-yuan lai wo shi na me ruo de-